Friday, July 1, 2011

A day in the life of a normal girl, trying to be anything but normal.

"Hate ends not with more hate but with love.
And from that we take hope. 
Without love and hope our lives would be empty.
Happiness is something we cannot keep, unless we give it away."
quote from a Khmer mother after her life had been uprooted, her loved ones murdered, and her country torn apart by her very own people.

Whew, back to the day...
The day where I get to meet and BE influenced by these incredibly strong, capable, beautiful, and kind people. These people who have had so much taken away and have responded with smiles through their tears. All I pray is that I learn from them and that in some small way I am able to help carry just a tiny piece of this massive, unfathomable burden that they have had for so many years. This will be the ultimate blessing to me, me who was born with EVERYTHING. If you are reading this, thank you for being in my life.

  • Most people around here take 3 showers a day… the high temp right now is 88 or 89 I think, but with 100% humidity it is said to feel like high 90’s.  Either way, feels hot to me!  And I love three cool showers in a day!
  • Still on the job hunt!  I have three websites I keep up on everyday.  Have applied for some positions, mostly teaching.  Have heard back on a couple, but I am waiting for just the right thing! Hopefully something that leaves time for volunteering and spending time with friends from school where I worked last year and enjoying this earth that the good Lord created to be enjoyed. 
  • Another part of the daily routine is CLEANING!  I sweep the place everyday, mop often, take the trash out everyday and ALWAYS wash all of the dishes and keep food in the fridge or tightly sealed!  There are always bugs anywhere you go, and of course it’s also dusty! 
  • Psar Toul Tom Pong (Russian Market) is a favorite stop of mine!  I love getting ‘Phnom Penh’s Best Iced Coffee’ from a very sweet man who always has multiple Sampeah’s (Khmer way of greeting, showing respect, saying thank you, etc! always a good thing) for you and his beautiful niece is always there as well.  These people are there 7 days a week, all day.  Never heard of sick days or vacation days J  Have met some super nice people just hanging out drinking coffee (two glasses of the best iced coffee in Phnom Penh for $1).  Today I met Michelle from Mayo, Ireland and Alex from D.C.  They are here for the summer working as law interns for an NGO, had a great time chatting with them!  Also you can find anything you want or need at the markets here, any kind of clothing or a tailor if you want your clothing made.  You can buy all of your food, bathroom and cleaning supplies, office supplies, things for a car or moto including tires and other parts, you can eat lunch, run into people from every country in the world, find any piece of jewelry, books, any cd, dvd, battery, camera part, lol I will stop but you get the point!
  • Met a lovely Pakistani woman today named Maria!  She has the cutest son ever! Her husband is here working for Mobitel.  She has been here since May but has to head back home in a couple days.  I got her email though in case I even want to go visit. She lives in Peshawar and could NOT believe that I don’t have Facebook, ha-ha!
  • Saw a white woman on a moto with TWO kids in front of her. Both of them had helmets, yea!  So wish I got a picture of that, funny sight and not so common! Six Khmer=fine, Three foreigners(including two kids)=not such a common sight!
  • Today I got some groceries (you tend to buy more often and need to use more quickly groceries here because of the heat) and also some dvd’s.   The sun sets at 6 and I usually try to be inside by then, the evenings can get lonely so I usually read but with the TV on. Decided to get some new movies, let me know if anyone has recommendations (you can get any movie that is out, or haha in the theatre).  Anyhow…I guess it pays off hanging out in one place for an hour letting the employees practice their English on you and asking them all about their families, houses, distance to work, how they like their jobs, etc.!  Got six dvd’s for $7.50!  They are usually $1.50 or $2 each (at this high-quality place), even for Khmer ha-ha! Super sweet employee, Dany (English nickname) gave me her phone number.  Last time Mar and I found it is better to receive phone numbers than to give yours ha-ha. As it would not be uncommon for someone to call you ten times a day, even someone you just met! Mar remember Menghorng ahhhhhhh!!!  :)
  • Ohhh the monsoons… I usually hide inside in the afternoon either at home or somewhere else.  So anytime between 1 and 4 it usually RAINS like crazy for an hour or two.  And these storms are not just crazy rain; they include extremely high wind, and amazing lightning.  Not so amazing is the fact that more than 90 people have been killed this year. LMore people die in Cambodia from lightning than in any other country, and it’s still early in the wet season. 
Sorry if this is boring, just trying to explain a typical day!  And actually I typed a huge thing and then i somehow lost it, so this is the second time around and not as well written because I got frustated haha.

Much Love! And many Sampeahs!

Monday, June 27, 2011

Take the time to 'smell the durian'

(Disclaimer..this is me preaching to myself! Not to anyone else, trust me!  I always have to stay busy, have a million things to do, people to see, a full schedule, lists, a plan, work 50 hours a week, etc.  I am DONE .)

  • Because today is always better than yesterday. 
  • Because, although there is assuredly some corruption involved (because there always is when you have people running a country, especially people surrounded by hunger and poverty!), the masterminds of a terrible genocide and destruction of a country are FINALLY (after 40 years) going to be brought to justice.  
  • Because someday when you are looking back at that little drop in the ocean (of your life as it is now), the things that are going to matter are the little moments, the simple gestures, the tears of joy, the smells that shock you, the images that break your heart over and over again, the tastes that you will never forget, and the smiles that stay with you all day long.
  • Because my Khmer friend can attend university (she graduates this year with a degree in Banking and Finance), have a decent job, a place to live, and a smile...despite the fact that her father, as a full time teacher made 20,000 riel ($5) a month (and still managed to send his kids from their home in the countryside to Phnom Penh where there is University and so much more opportunity).
  • Because 'there is hope that everyone who's lost will be coming home and everyone that's hurting will be whole again and love will be the last thing standing.'
  • Because in a place where the GDP per capita is $783 (according to the US Dept of State, btw ours is $48,000), every person has a smile to flash, a hand to lend, and rice to share.  
  • Because you were not created to feel hurt, you were not created to feel anger, you were not created to feel bitterness, you were not created to feel pain; You were created to love, you were created to give, you were created to serve, you were created to seek truth and peace and justice, and in doing all these things you do what you were created to do: Glorify Him.
  • Because tomorrow you might not have the opportunity.
  • Because you DO have time. It doesn't matter what deadline is looming, what engagement you cannot miss, what silly television show you can't live without, who is waiting for you at the office, or what improvements need to be made on your home or your vehicle. What matters is today, who do you choose to serve?  Do you have time for 'the least of these?' Do you choose to take the time to follow the first and greatest commandment? Because if you follow this, you automatically follow the second commandment. You automatically practice the pure religion that James spoke of, other thoughts...Deuteronomy 15:7 If there is a poor man among you, one of your brothers, in any of the towns of the land which the LORD your God is giving you, you shall not harden your heart, nor close your hand to your poor brother; but you shall freely open your hand to him, and generously lend him sufficient for his need in whatever he lacks. Jeremiah 22:3 Do justice and righteousness, and deliver the one who has been robbed from the power of his oppressor. Also do not mistreat or do violence to the stranger, the orphan, or the widow; and do not shed innocent blood in this place. Luke 12:33 Sell your possessions and give to charity; make yourselves purses which do not wear out, an unfailing treasure in heaven, where no thief comes near, nor moth destroys. Is. 58:10 And if you give yourself to the hungry, and satisfy the desire of the afflicted, then your light will rise in darkness, and your gloom will become like midday. And the LORD will continually guide you, and satisfy your desire in scorched places, and give strength to your bones; and you will be like a watered garden, and like a spring of water whose waters do not fail. Luke 14:12-14 When you give a luncheon or a dinner, do not invite your friends or your brothers or your relatives or rich neighbors, lest they also invite you in return, and repayment come to you. But when you give a reception, invite the poor, the crippled, the lame, the blind, and you will be blessed, since they do not have the means to repay you; for you will be repaid at the resurrection of the righteous.Matthew 25:35-40 For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.'Then the righteous will answer him, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?' The King will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.' Yes, we all know these verses, and it is easy to forget them or to pretend that they are not literal. But since poverty is mentioned over 2,000 times in God's word, I do not see how we can disregard it. I will stop for now :)
  • Because it might take some getting used to, but eventually you might find the smell is better than a room rull of roses.
And if you don't know what that(durian) is...time for a visit :)

Just want to say hey!  And let you know that Cambodia is everything I remembered and more.

All my love...

Capture the Moment and Let it Take you Away

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Thursday, June 23, 2011

what now

Sometimes life throws ya a curve ball. Maybe you are expecting it. Maybe it's way too sudden and catches you completely off guard. Maybe it's the best thing that could have ever happened. Maybe it's the hardest thing that you have ever faced. Maybe you aren't sure if you should take that leap forward or timidly take a few steps back. Maybe you are looking for answers, searching for Someone, praying for guidance and all you feel is ... nothing. Maybe you feel peace. Maybe you feel alone. Maybe you feel hurt. Maybe you feel dead inside.
But...Tomorrow WILL come. Tomorrow WILL bring life. Tomorrow WILL bring hope. Tomorrow WILL bring inspiration. Tomorrow WILL be today. That curve ball will become a NECESSARY part of who you are, who you will become, who you will inspire, what you will create, and what you will change.
God NEVER allows more than we can handle with Him beside us. He only allows what will make us better. No matter how much it sucks or hurts. He is always there, to carry us through.